Hello all
Not a post I wanted to make but one that has been a long time coming. I made the decision last week to call time on my contributions to this thread for the season. Having had time to reflect, I am satisfied that it is the correct one.
The main reason is the worst depressive episode for over ten years. It had been building since the summer and it finally came to a head recently. As much as activity can be useful in such scenarios, I was putting too much pressure on myself with this project and I really need to just rest. Another element is that for every horse, there is a memory by association and though it is not entirely rational or fair on the horses themselves, continuing on this season's crop will not be useful in attempts to ground myself in the moment, or to look forward to the future. I am sure that once distance has been established and the wounds have healed, I will be able to look back upon much of this season with great fondness.
I do look forward to Hexham's June meeting (otherwise known as Epsom Derby Day or something) with great relish, and in the interim, I will be using some of the time to fix and build some spreadsheets and pay greater attention to what the French three-year-olds are doing... Much of which should involve lots of soothing, interminable, eternally soothing, data entry. Other actions which should help the 2021/22 thread will be better self-management including good eating, plenty of exercise and rebuilding relationships which had soured during recent months. Hopefully, watching French racing won't compel me to also watch too many black and white existentialist riots, but I think I can allow myself to watch Un homme qui dort a few times a month without doing too much harm...
Many thanks to all that read and contributed to this thread. It there is any feedback, positive and negative, then now is the probably the best time to leave it as I will have more flexibility to experiment with and implement ideas.
Not a post I wanted to make but one that has been a long time coming. I made the decision last week to call time on my contributions to this thread for the season. Having had time to reflect, I am satisfied that it is the correct one.
The main reason is the worst depressive episode for over ten years. It had been building since the summer and it finally came to a head recently. As much as activity can be useful in such scenarios, I was putting too much pressure on myself with this project and I really need to just rest. Another element is that for every horse, there is a memory by association and though it is not entirely rational or fair on the horses themselves, continuing on this season's crop will not be useful in attempts to ground myself in the moment, or to look forward to the future. I am sure that once distance has been established and the wounds have healed, I will be able to look back upon much of this season with great fondness.
I do look forward to Hexham's June meeting (otherwise known as Epsom Derby Day or something) with great relish, and in the interim, I will be using some of the time to fix and build some spreadsheets and pay greater attention to what the French three-year-olds are doing... Much of which should involve lots of soothing, interminable, eternally soothing, data entry. Other actions which should help the 2021/22 thread will be better self-management including good eating, plenty of exercise and rebuilding relationships which had soured during recent months. Hopefully, watching French racing won't compel me to also watch too many black and white existentialist riots, but I think I can allow myself to watch Un homme qui dort a few times a month without doing too much harm...
Many thanks to all that read and contributed to this thread. It there is any feedback, positive and negative, then now is the probably the best time to leave it as I will have more flexibility to experiment with and implement ideas.
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